I called California's Early Intervention to see if I could get some assistance for Sammi and Alex. Sammi for her speech, which I am seeing a lot of similarities with Shabree's, and Alex's seeming delays. I haven't heard from the doctor yet, but doubt that I would this quickly anyway. Other than that, not much going on around here. My milk supply dropped a bunch, not exactly sure what caused that. I'm working to bring it back up, but it almost seems like I can only hold an ounce at a time now instead of two, two and a half ounces. I hope I didn't damage the tissue, that would be very, very bad. I was using the heating pad on them to increase production, and I think it may have backfired. Hopefully I can bring it back up, but if the damage is permanent... sigh. Boy, do I really want to quit now. Though it has become almost easier to breast feed than to do bottles. I would miss it a lot, and so would Alex. I'm not really ready to give up on it. I would LOVE to get to a year, even 2 with her. I'm tired of battling it though. I really am. I'll probably keep going anyway. I can't seem to stop, not matter what happens. This is just ONE more hurdle to overcome, and there have been many of those in this journey. I just hope it's temporary. It NEEDS to be temporary.
Well, guess I'll post this and go see about the girls who should be home any time now and maybe get dinner strted. I'm STARVING, even though it's only 3 p.m. Maybe a snack is in order.